The 6 Things...
Firstly, to ekstasis who tagged me. This is a rather negative exercise, though I am going to do it for some reason un-known to me yet.
1. I hate that I am weak around people and let many others have power over me- I can't stand up for myself.
2. I hate that I feel so much guilt before I ask my parents if I am allowed to do something. I am 21 right? True, so technicaally, I am 'my own boss'.Many would ask why I put up with it. You see, my parents are good to me and I have come to realise just how lucky I am to be living in a genuinely nice home environment and I don't want to give that up. So, there's really not much to put up with.
3. I hate that I sometimes mold myself to suite a situation or the type of people I hang around with. Actually, it is more that I express or repress elements of myself around different people. Is this a bad thing?
4. I hate that I am not daring enough sometimes. I am just so overcome by the CONSEQUENCES...it is always about the CONSEQUENCES.
5. I hate that I am soooo negative and insecure about boys. Like the other day for example. The new boy on the scene hadn't called yet to confirm our date. Automatically, I went into panic mode and just thought....here we go again, he's going to message and say he has other plans, or not message at all. But, it all worked out well in the end. Maybe this will be different?
6. I hate that I can't...OK, I have to think of the 6th one, I am sure it will come to me.
Over & Out
Jess
1. I hate that I am weak around people and let many others have power over me- I can't stand up for myself.
2. I hate that I feel so much guilt before I ask my parents if I am allowed to do something. I am 21 right? True, so technicaally, I am 'my own boss'.Many would ask why I put up with it. You see, my parents are good to me and I have come to realise just how lucky I am to be living in a genuinely nice home environment and I don't want to give that up. So, there's really not much to put up with.
3. I hate that I sometimes mold myself to suite a situation or the type of people I hang around with. Actually, it is more that I express or repress elements of myself around different people. Is this a bad thing?
4. I hate that I am not daring enough sometimes. I am just so overcome by the CONSEQUENCES...it is always about the CONSEQUENCES.
5. I hate that I am soooo negative and insecure about boys. Like the other day for example. The new boy on the scene hadn't called yet to confirm our date. Automatically, I went into panic mode and just thought....here we go again, he's going to message and say he has other plans, or not message at all. But, it all worked out well in the end. Maybe this will be different?
6. I hate that I can't...OK, I have to think of the 6th one, I am sure it will come to me.
Over & Out
Jess
posted by Jumpin' @ 4:04 PM
1 Comments:
At 1:21 AM,
damian j said…
I think your list (except for the stuff about boys) is coming from the same place as mine, only I have self-loathing to help me flesh it out.
A part of me wants to find out what you can dig up for six, and it's just overpowering the part of me that disagrees with you even making a list like this.
You seem too much like a "glass is half full" or even "dude, there's always more water" kind of gal to be getting into this rubbish. But it's good to see some of my own worries mirrored by someone else.
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